To be or not to be.

Fail fast, fail more. There are no failures in life, only lessons; that's what we are told. Be persistent, impose your will upon fate and rule your destiny. Easier said than done of course, because clearly for the vast majority, there are no realised dreams, no happy endings. 3:42AM after a restless night looking out into the abyss of my mind and thinking, when? For all the things hoped for are within my grasp but ever so evasive, within my grasp but still so unattainable. Is it that who I am is not worthy of what I want, then who must I become, what is left to do? Well; persist of course. Why resign to a life of mediocrity when the world is in my grasp. Still like sand it falls through my fingers and I cant get a hold of it, but giving up is never an option and totally barred from my consciousness, hard wired to keep trying in the face of eminent defeat, charging into the unknown with the certainty of a man of faith, God has it all written and I'm merely a character is a master plan. The arc, the development is worthy of the wait, bear witness to the rise all those who will, for it is not who I am, but who I am fated to be.